Conversations

Day 2 of chemo. As the session started this morning, I got a call from Australia. It turned out to be someone I've not caught up with for more than 25 years. Quarter of a century, think about that. It was a short call but it reminded me that there are lots of people out there who cares and who are concerned. It is a slippery slop to isolate yourself and feel that nobody else understands. In my opinion, that is an untruth to tear down even with cancer. Sometimes other people's life experiences may be so bitter that all they are able to say to you is that they understand.

Yesterday, after I had time to download my emotions of possibly meeting my aunt, I felt ready to meet her. She came in the evening together with a few of my cousins. It was so good to see them. They were relieved to see that I was okay. My aunt reassured me that medical advancements and Jesus will get me through this. When they were leaving, my cousin sister told me that my aunt was very worried when she heard about my condition. It is not hard to understand why; she has known me right from the time I was a newborn. Sometimes, it is better to face the emotions with a bit of preparation than to hide from it.

There can be many opinions on what the best course of action is, what are the do's and dont's. Conventional or alternative, western or TCM or both. Raw salads and juicing or everything in a capsule. Every person speaks from their own experiences, each unique. I decided earlier on that I would be open to listen. At times when you are so sure about something, you want to avoid listening to views that confuses you and bring you back to the state of indecision. But if something is important enough, there is time for some indecision. Nobody takes away your decision by telling you something. I find that it helps if you ask clarifying question so that people tell you more about their own experiences. I have certainly picked up some good tips along the way.

I am very appreciative of all the messages and suggestions received. Don't feel awkward about asking me anything if you really want to. That was the reason I blog about my condition, so that we can just be comfortable talking.