Hunger Pangs

I am feeling really hungry. 6 months ago, breakfast would be the furthest thing from my mind. There are so many articles out there about the importance of breakfast and many people would tell me the same thing. Just 2 days ago I saw an article that debunks this view so I guess the debate is still out there. But breakfast wasn't something that came naturally to me. I remember when I was in primary school, I had to gulp Milo with each bite of the bread to wash it down. But I did enjoy the half-boiled eggs with soya sauce and white pepper - I never remembered this bit until now.

When I started chemo last year, I made myself eat breakfast because an empty stomach made me dizzy and exacerbated the nausea. Since then, breakfast has become a routine for me and something that I look forward to. I get hungry if I don't have it. I won't be able to manage a hearty Full English Breakfast or the full-on high carb Asian breakfast. It is often something light for a quick munch. I remember many years ago when I stayed in a staff dormitory during a training trip in Tokyo and they served rice with several dishes for breakfast.  Japanese generosity wasted on me. 

I am hungry, and now very cold, because I have to fast for this morning's PET/CT scan. As part of the procedure, they just gave me some medication that induces peeing. Hungry, cold and feel like peeing - my combi today. I only needed to fast for 6 hours but I slept quite early yesterday night after a full day at work fighting jet lag. The preparation for the scan and the scan itself will take a few hours. By the time I am done here I can probably eat 2 portions of lunch.

The upside is that the hunger and thinking about what to eat for lunch later take the mind off the scan results. I thought about the scan occasionally during the holidays and a bit more since I got home. Yesterday I ask myself why I thought about today since the scan results are only going to be out tomorrow. Actually it is quite pointless thinking about it all; it doesn't change the outcome a single bit. Fear can be irrational.

Thinking about what I am going to eat after a test or a procedure, on the other hand, is something that changes what the day is going to be like.